Prayer from the Heart

Thursday, April 17, 2025
Great and Holy Thursday
Commemoration of the Mystical Supper

Wash me with my tears and purify me with them, O Word. Forgive my sins and grant me pardon. Thou knowest the multitude of my evil-doings, Thou knowest also my wounds, And Thou seest my bruises. But also Thou knowest my faith, and Thou beholdest my willingness, and Thou hearest my sighs.

Nothing escapes Thee, my God, My Maker, my Redeemer: not even a tear-drop, nor part of a drop. Thine eyes know what I have not achieved, And in Thy book things not yet done are written by Thee. See my depression, see how great is my trouble, and all my sins take from me, O God of all, that with a clean heart, trembling mind and contrite spirit, I may partake of Thy pure and all-holy Mysteries by which all who eat and drink Thee with sincerity of heart are quickened and deified.

— Prayer of St. Symeon the New Theologian
Prayers Before Holy Communion, Book of the Hours

I can remember the relief the first time I heard an Orthodox Christian priest pray publicly and spontaneously from the heart. I was raised to believe that this was always how Christians ought to pray, privately and publicly, and I was worried that all the deep, rich prayers I was beginning to learn in the Orthodox Church would preclude this personal pouring out of one’s heart to God. But as he combined his spontaneous prayer that day with some of the more familiar, common prayers from the Church’s holy tradition, I learned that one form of heart-felt prayer need not preclude or replace another.

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Ravish Me With Longing

Thou hast ravished me with longing, O Christ, and with Thy divine love Thou hast changed me. But burn up with spiritual fire my sins and make me worthy to be filled with delight in Thee, that I may leap for joy, O gracious Lord, and magnify Thy two comings. Into the splendor of Thy Saints how shall I who am unworthy enter? For if I dare to enter the bridechamber, my vesture betrays me, for it is not a wedding garment, and as a prisoner I shall be cast out by the Angels. Cleanse my soul from pollution and save me, O Lord, in Thy love for men.

Preparatory Prayers for Holy Communion

“Uh, Fahhh-ther, the Bible says that the sacrament of the Lord’s supper is only a symbol or a mere remembrance.” I can still hear my nagging, self-righteous challenge from so long ago. As one of the few fundamentalist, Protestant Christians in an all-boys Roman Catholic high school, my biblical challenges in a class on sacramental theology came often and not always welcomed. I was especially bothered by what the priest would teach concerning what the Roman Church calls the sacrifice of the Mass; i.e., that in consecrating the bread and wine into the body and blood of our Lord Jesus Christ, we the faithful are not merely remembering Him like some historical event or person, but re-presenting Him in this particular moment of time. In other words, whenever the Mass is celebrated, the timeless work of salvation, the Paschal Mystery (first time I learned this word “Pascha” from a Catholic priest) of Our Lord’s death, burial, Resurrection and Ascension is brought again from the timeless into this present moment of time.

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A Feastday for Sucklings

Icon Triumphal Entry into Jerusalem

Sunday, April 5, 2015
Orthodox Palm Sunday

I will never forget one of my first experiences of worship in the Orthodox Church. It was a Syrian/Antiochian Orthodox Church in Sylvania, OH, and I thought I had come prepared for what I was about to experience. Had my Bible, my trusty notebook (that I still carry around to this day), and I was ready to drill the priest or anyone else who asked with a battery of biblical objections to what I presumed in advance would be idolatry. What I was not prepared for was an argument from a wordless two year old, toddling next to me in church. He was busy staring open-mouthed in wonder at a larger-than-life icon of St. Anthony the Great of the Desert. In a matter of seconds, I put my book away and decided that the two-year old was getting something that I was missing. For just as the babes and sucklings in today’s feast, his open mouth was already beginning to perfect the praise worthy of Almighty God. Continue reading